This is a story of self discovery, freedom of expression, passion and responsibility. Based on real events and characters, it takes shape of an irregular diary, a collection of small independent stories. Featuring BDSM lifestyle, some may consider it to be NSFW, however it is but a day in my life. Certainly 18+ though! So do not proceed if you’re not of age or maturity.

List of stories in this series.

BDSM in VRChat

A bit of a rant disguised as trying to educate certain audience. That’s what it is today.

I’ve been in and around VRChat, your most popular virtual reality social platform (aka metaverse) for thousands of hours. Like in real life, there is also BDSM. However even more so because it is online. Many people use BDSM in some shape or form as a horny tool when having sex in virtual reality. Oh if you didn’t know, every single movement of our real bodies is translated to our virtual avatars and there are even integrations for Lovense toys to do what they do the best based on virtual… objects…

If you’ve read my previous post you already know that this isn’t a horny tool for me, but much more. BDSM truly is much more in reality, but it is also a horny tool. One should not assume that it is only one or the other though. The problem with VRChat lies within the perception that it is “a game.” It clearly isn’t, it’s a social platform and everything in it is real - real people you talk to and interact with. Real people have physical feelings as well as emotions. Real people can be scarred both physically and emotionally through virtual interaction. The emotional will be obvious, but you may ask how can they get hurt physically? It’s not like someone is actually going to tie them up and beat the shit out of them, right? Not in reality, no, however with enough immersion our brain does interpret virtual stimuli as real and this can cause feelings of real, intense pain, as well as other senses. This is called “phantom sense.” For this reason consent, negotiation and safewords are all very important. To draw an extreme example I once had a person to choke in real life because I placed my foot on their neck and they interpreted it as really heavy force, even though that was not my intention. (This wasn’t even a BDSM scene mind you, just role play.) Definitely not a game, even though you’re using a gaming PC and launch it through Steam.

Advice for the Submissive

There are things one can do to gauge whether someone is trustworthy or not - this is in my opinion especially useful for submissives since they’re the ones who give up the control and can easily get hurt as a result. Don’t get me wrong, a dominant can get hurt as well - there are things that a submissive could do that could completely destroy them. However it is a bit less likely, partially cause they are the ones in control and partially because they are naturally a bit more resilient.

One thing that I always tell people to watch out for is whether their potential dominant initiates negotiation about wants/needs/limits, chat about kinks and interests, whether they want to have regular check-ins to ensure that both sides are happy. Every BDSM interaction should start with a discussion of what each party wants from it, what they definitely need in it, and what they don’t want to ever experience (limits.) It’s also kind of a common sense to get to know each other a bit, know what each other likes, what kinks or interests they have. BDSM dynamic generally isn’t a one night stand and even when it is, this should happen. For a more long term dynamic regular check-in becomes important to ensure that both parties are still happy, that their wants/needs/limits did not change and if they did, how, we need to talk about it to know what might hurt either one, in one way or another. Positive reinforcement is also very important here to make sure that one or the other doesn’t fall into “a drop.” That is a bad feeling, for example from the dominant side it could take shape of feeling like a monster, that you actually hurt someone you care about.

And let’s not forget about a safe word. If we’re talking about BDSM, we should have a safe word. It is common to be mute for one reason or another in VRChat - if this is the case, the dominant can come up with alternatives. I mean even in real life I can shush someone with a gag. In such an event, I would tell them to hold my whip, or bite onto it, be creative. If they drop it, I know that something is wrong. Similarly in VRChat one can use physics objects and watch out for them falling - this works when the submissive is tied up, gagged, mute… If they have free hands it’s much easier, just cross your arms into an X as a universal sign, or you can also negotiated one hand sign if one hand is indisposed. A fist in front of your mouth?

In my opinion it’s a red flag if a dominant does not initiate these things. This responsibility lies on the dominant to make sure that the submissive feels safe. If they fail/forget/don’t-know these basic first steps, it’s a big red flag in my book. Very sadly this occurs in every sad BDSM story around VRChat - poor or nonexistent communication.

Advice for the Dominant

Don’t be fake and wield your power responsibly. Being a hard dom doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t care at all, that’s not what it means. Similarly being a hard dom doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t provide any aftercare. Always make sure that your pet is okay. Maybe you could take a look at it from real life perspective if you don’t have this experience. This is a human being that entrusts their life to your hands. Fully, without limits. You are responsible for their freedom and their well-being. You know, it is an honour to be trusted with someones life. Do you feel proud and happy when you hear the bell on your pets collar? I’m overjoyed, it makes my day.

It’s not all about sex. It’s more often about emotions than sex. How it feels to be powerless, without any freedom… How it feels to be in control over someones freedom, their life in your hands. Anyway, do take your time to ensure that both sides know what they’re getting into and that you both understand where the limits are. Safewords aren’t there to immediately drop everything and end your scene, so don’t be afraid of them. Safewords are there to pause, find out what’s going on and how we can make it better. Either way though, don’t ignore them.

Minors

There seem to be a scary amount of minors in VRChat who want to be adopted, to be pets, go for walkies on a leash and all that. It seems to be rather common that people think that Lifestyle Pet Play (yes that’s what that would be) is SFW and even okay for minors. Hate to break it to you, it isn’t safe to expose minors to it. Not having any sexual aspects doesn’t make it safe for immature audience. Let’s take that idea apart. Let’s have a minor engage in pet play for a few years as they grow up. Let’s have them get so familiar and “safe” in it that they think that BDSM pet play is no different. Without establishing safe words or limits, diving straight into it. I’ll let you figure out the potential outcomes.

 

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Rhea's pet in her embrace with tied up hands.

Rhea's pet in her embrace with tied up hands.